Listen up Linda, well no David..
They say that explaining is admission of failure but Mama really wasn’t in a mission to feed herself to a bad man ,trust me that wasn’t my intention..
I just wanted to be wanted child, and oh he was gorgeous!, your father.
He kissed with his eyes closed and so i yearned for this bliss of carrying within me a future –lawyer,or maybe a prominent doctor with charm just like his..
I fell for him ,Yes ,and hard ,but little did i know that betrayal would knock sooner ..we really ain’t promised tomorrow.
Now I’m bleeding child, and there’s no one here to get me bandages ,,no one, not even your father . .All he does now is stand alongside the rest of the critics and throw tantrums …
“I am sorry for the blood in that bastard’s veins ” he says ,,”i wish it wasn’t mine ..”
Tables turned child, now he wants you flushed out ..like you never did matter ,,my head is under water they all want to see me drown..
These monsters am battling keep staring at me ,child..glancing from my pregnant belly to my naked ring finger ,,in their mouths the same big and little words spelling out disgust .
They be like “you two will be alone always and then you will die !”
See ,even the priest doesn’t want you ,child..
This bulging stomach with no man by my side threatens his purity and piety ,he fears that the gates of heaven will shut on his face so screw that fate ! ..
There has been a lot of disapproval streaming out the wrong way and i don’t want to be the kind that takes things the wrong way so its time i focused on the only heart i know; yours child!
You are still here,
you are right here with Mama sweetheart..
Well, this is the point where the evening splits into two – its either them or us child and i choose US .. So,
I’ll build you a city and call it US ,i will build you another and call it US so we can both live unbothered ..
I get it,i could be irresponsible and even – morally questionable.. But am not ashamed to carry this blessed gift of a life growing within me ..
And yes ! They keep saying that i should have done things the right way ,..but what is right anyway? Their disapproving gauze? Which they ought to divert by the way..–or those hurtful words i wish they’d choke on??
The circumstances surrounding a child’s conception doesn’t matter,,
Whether in or out of wedlock or during a one night stand somewhere,, That child is still a blessing ..
So listen up Linda / David …i mean child , you are a blessing!
Article by Wachira Florence